Returning from the Dead. What next?

Well, it has been almost 4 years since I have started this blog. I don't know why have stopped writing in it. Obviously, by skimming through the dozen of posts I have written, most of my posts are about rants, criticizing, pathetic comparisons, some personal diaries and some technical posts. This would lead to the conclusion that I am not focused and this blog should be specialized. Well when I started this blog 4 years ago, it was first meant to be a bit political. Then I started 4 other blogs for technical and personal posts. Then I decided to let it all be in one. I was treating it as way to think out loudly or to log some diary entries but online.

Anyways, I lost my interest in writing later on after I graduated, so I ignored this blog. But many times I feel like I want to write down some thoughts. Back in time, at the the height of this blog, when I used to feel that I wanted to write, it was I had an urge to write just like the urge to pee and holding it for a long time in the cold. I would rush back home to and turn on my computer, and keep on writing and writing. I would format my text, add pictures and hyperlinks. Somehow I treated the post as if its a writing assignment that I like. I hated these stupid essays. Although I regret not paying attention to the writing courses, but the instructors and their topics were really boring and not appealing.

These days, however, I started feeling that I want to write again. I want to express some inner feelings and thoughts. Some of these thoughts are religious, other are philosophical. Hang on, what the heck is philosophical and why I am calling them so? May be this is what I call challenging dogmatic teachings..dogmatic? Basically, a lot of controversial thoughts has been going around in my head. I decided to let some of these escape to this hideout. Yes, I still call this place a hideout although I am aware some of the people I know have stumbled upon this blog because I stupidly used my nickname to sign these posts.

Well, giving myself more freedom in expressing myself, and given the fact this place has been quiet for some good time, allowing it disappear from google's first page when searched for with its title, I decided to change my pen name. I choose Lazarus. Why that name? Because as I said, I decided to revive this blog, bringing it out from the dead. Jesus Christ revived a guy called Lazarus and brought him back from the dead. I like the hebrew form of the name more, but Lazarus has a better sound in my head. I am not contradicting myself here. Sounding better in my head doesn't have to make me like it more. Actually, the name Satan has a better sound and its easier and more lighter for pronounciation than the word angel.

So what are my next steps or posts would be about? While browsing through the links in dashboard and refamiliarizing myself with the management settings of the blogs, I found a couple of draft posts. I think I should still post these. duuuh, I have spent more than an hour writing this post. That's enough for my return.

Back after 3 months

pfffft, I haven't blogged in a loooong while. I think I forgot all about my previous posts. I also haven't wrote anything in a loooong while too. But I have read a lot. I read a collection of short stories for Alaa El Aswany called Niran Sadiqa ( Friendly Fire), followed by his hit 3omaret Ya3qobian (Yacoubian Building) and finally his 2007 hit Chicago. I didn't watch the movie of Yacoubian but I liked the Chicago novel more. I would write my own analysis of the novel in another post soon. Some people are shocked at the excessive use of sex in that novel. But based on my previous comparative literature courses that I have take at university and school, I believe it was justified in almost all of the situations except for one or two. I am not turning this post into an analysis of the novel as I would do so soon but its worth to mention that the novel added to my hate to the regime here and it made think about my future plans from a different perspective.

A lot of things happened and changed during my 3 months absence from the scene of blogging. I logged in to a website to see the traffic flow pattern during my absence which dropped from around 10 users everyday most of them coming from aggregators to less than 4 and all coming from search engines. A surprising surge occurred on March 2nd and that was due to the lunar eclipse although I have a post about the solar eclipse. The main aggregator from which the main traffic used to come to here when I was posting moved from Manalaa website host to its own host at www.omraneya.net.
One thing worth of notice is that the number of Egyptian bloggers is on exponential rise, mostly due to the propaganda it got in the media and specially after the jailing of Abdel Kareem Soliman. Even newspapers and magazines like Al Ahram and October Magazine have shown steps with screenshots on how to start a blog!!

A lot of changes happened to me as well. I am thinking of things differently now. I changed my view of change. It seems that change in Egypt is a far fetched idea. Within 6 weeks there will be a referendum on a meaningless change on the constitution. Chaos is still taking over in everything in Egypt. I have been to rural areas, not so far from Cairo, in south Giza. The green farms is still being attacked by cement blocked. People still have no toilets in their homes yet they have mobile phones! This should be another post. There is a stand off between the government and the Muslim Brotherhood. The government confiscated or freezed accounts of many prominent businessman whose investments are in billions resulting in slumps in stock market. At the same time the MB performed a show of power in the Azhar university. It would be cool seeing more action between them. The Coptic church is also making some headlines because of internal conflicts. I foresee some major actions in it soon.

Mobile Communications Networks tycoon Naguib Sawiris has suffered a dirty trick from the Egyptian government who granted Vodafone some privileges over his Mobinil launched a new Satellite Channel called OTV, probably standing for Orascom TV on which many of my relatives and friends appeared. The third Mobile Phone Network operators will be launched within days. I would probably right about its packages too.